Monday September 27, 2010

Well what a day!  There is a rumor going around that some agencies are going to be receiving some referrals with the dossier dates through May 18, 2006.  As you know, our log in date for our dossier is May 18, 2006!  The rumor is from a reliable source so as you can guess, we are sitting on pins and needles hoping and praying that the rumor is true, but only time will tell!

Sunday Sam humored me by going to Toys R Us and looking at everything.  I am obsessed with bath toys and they only thing that caught his eye was a monitor.  He admitted to being pretty oblivious as what we need.  He has been telling the stories his staff has been telling him about the diapers that have poo all the way up the back and down the leg.  He is having a hard time imagining that can even happen.  Boy is he in for a shock! 

I have tried to "break him in" on diapers with our niece Abby, but he says he'll wait for Tia.  It's a good thing I'll be around when he does his first one, but I would love to have a nanny cam on him when he gets a messy diaper when I'm not around!  I'm know I'm terrible or maybe even evil!!

We are getting SO EXCITED!!  After years of waiting and dreaming of the moment, I have all these ideas of how to tell family and friends.  Sam tells me that he has his work cut out to keep me grounded!  I must say, he certainly does!!

I am currently reading "From China With Love, A Long Road to Motherhood" by Emily Buchanan.  I'm at the part where she has just received her daughter.  She's talking about all the fears that she had about maybe her baby not liking her or she not liking her baby; what if she can't do this; what if her daughter won't bond/attach.  As she goes on talking about these feelings, she realized that she is already completely in love with her daughter and that this is what she's been waiting for.  It dawns on me that even though I feel like I'm alone, I'm really not.

As my mom and sisters tell me, I do have experience with my nephews and nieces.  But as I often point out, I can send them home when I'm done.  This will not be the case.  The only thing that truly terrifies me is the flight there and home.  Granted on the plane from China will be full of other families heading home too so if our daughter cries for a long period of time, the passengers won't care as they are in the same boat.  However, the legs of the US flights are a little different.  But I here I am putting the stroller before the baby!  OK so that wasn't very funny....

I do have to say as the wait has gone on and one, we put our faith in God.  Telling ourselves that He has a plan and we will come to understand it when it's time.  Well, I do have to say NOW I understand His plan!  Sam and I are feeling very calm and reassured of what lies a head of us

Of course I do have to give a shout out to our families, friend and co-workers for the prayer and support - especially my bosses!  Especially now that we SO close to the end!!